reavant:

That awkward moment between birth and death

((Kankri’s confession to Karkat))

triggered-vantas:

Kankri: … *sighs*
Kankri: 9kay, I’m 9nly g9ing t9 explain this 9ne time, s9 please all9w me t9 accurately speak my th9ughts 9n the matter.
Kankri: Let me preface, h9wever, 6y answering in the sh9rtest terms p9ssi6le 6y saying: ‘N9, Karkat, I d9 n9t regret entering this relati9nship with y9u’.
Kankri: 6ear with me, this might 6ec9me a 6it lengthy (and 6ef9re y9u c9mplain, y9u asked f9r this).

CG: OH GODDAMNIT. FINE, JUST THIS ONCE TO SATISFY US BOTH AND PUT ALL THIS TO REST.

 Kankri: Thank y9u. Here I g9.
Kankri: If y9u recall h9w this 6egan, y9u will remem6er that I actively s9ught 9ut y9ur seperate 6l9gs and 6egan f9ll9wing them under the guise 9f wanting t9 “c9rrect” your t9rrid 6ehavi9r.
This, 9f c9urse, is pr96a6ly as far fr9m the truth as y9u can p9ssi6ly imagine.
At that time, 6ef9re I knew y9u as intimately as I d9 n9w, I s9ught t9 kn9w y9u. I dare say t9 6e present in even y9ur filthiest th9ughts and fantasies 6ecause I had a 6ase craving t9 6e there, y9u see. I wanted t9 n9t 9nly understand what made y9u “tick” 69th inside and 9ut, 6ut I wanted t9 implant myself s9 firmly int9 y9ur c9nsci9usness that y9u c9uld n9t help 6ut recall me in all 9f y9ur th9ughts and acti9ns. Much like h9w y9u had 9vertaken mine, at that p9int. And it’s 9nly g9tten w9rse, 6ut 6y w9rse I mean 6etter, 9r at least, m9re su6stantially (su6stantially isn’t even the right w9rd, what I mean is actually 96sessively, 6ut I w9n’t all9w y9u t9 qu9te me 9n that, I will deny it t9 my sec9nd grave ((#tw))).
6y the time we entered this tangle 9f em9tions, I was already questi9ning my v9ws and pushing at their 69undaries t9 find s9me s9rt 9f h9le. In layman’s terms, I desired y9u in a way that I have never desired anything 6ef9re 9r since. 6ut s9 many pr96lematic things 9ccured 6ecause 9f it (please d9n’t 6lame y9urself, I will c9ntinue t9 explain).
Kankri: At the time we declared 9urselves matesprits 9fficially, I realized that the v9w 9f celi6acy I t99k all th9se sweeps previ9us w9uld immediately hinder us. I c9uld n9t readily dr9p them for several reasons: 9ne, it is a large p9rti9n 9f what has defined me f9r alm9st all 9f my existence, living and dead; tw9, the 6acklash I w9uld have received fr9m every9ne here w9uld have never ended; three, the v9w was s9mething I made 6ack when I har69red such vi9lent feelings t9ward 6ef9rus’ caste system, and I sw9re t9 myself that I w9uld n9t partake in such rituals t9 pr9duce 9ffspring 6ecause I did n9t want them t9 suffer the same fate that I had in the clutches 9f the Empress. N9t t9 say they were w9rse than y9ur 9wn alienati9n 6y any means. 6ut Karkat, I d9n’t kn9w if y9u can understand what it’s truly like t9 6e.. c9ddled. And t9ld y9u are “special” and “fragile” and “delicate” all y9ur life. Y9u’re a rare specimine that they put in a pretty museum just s9 they can gaze at y9u and c99 9ver y9u like s9me alien child that can’t even fend f9r itself. I was n9t given the chance t9 learn t9 fend f9r myself. Everything was given unt9 me, and I hated them all f9r it. Are y9u happy with that w9rd, Karkat? It’s 9ne I’m sure y9u can relate t9. I hated them f9r treating me this way, and I sw9re t9 myself I w9uld never put an9ther thr9ugh the same jeweled circus that I was a part 9f. It’s sickening.
Kankri: S9, it has taken me a l9ng while t9 shake myself fr9m these r99ts sunk int9 ancient hist9ry, 6ut I have tried 6ecause, as I said, I *want* t9 6e with y9u, in all ways matesprits are designed t9 6e. And m9re. Dare I menti9n the Signless and his l9ver, and h9w they ‘transcended the quadrants’, I’m sure y9u kn9w the st9ry. 6ut I cann9t d9 it with my head in the pr9ver6ial sand and s9 it has taken me s9 l9ng t9 take these 6a6y steps t9 get here.
And 6y the time I g9t t9 this p9int, y9ur presence 6ecame n9nexistent. I th9ught y9u had m9ved 9n, that y9u were sick 9f waiting f9r me (y9u are n9t the 9nly 9ne with this insecurity, I can assure y9u). And the rest, y9u kn9w 6ecause y9u were there t9 witness it.
I d9 n9t hate y9u and I d9 n9t regret y9u. I ad9re y9u with every fi6er 9f my 6eing and I have w9rked 9n myself s9 hard and s9 l9ng t9 get t9 this p9int where I can say with9ut quaking 9r puking:
Kankri: Karkat, I want t9 6reak my v9w, with y9u. And 9nly y9u. F9rever.

Anonymous: Please lock me in chastity (possibly permanently)

black-quadrant:

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I c9mmend y9u 9n ch99sing a life 9f celi6acy.  Y9u will find that it’s a very advantage9us r9ute that will n9t 9nly all9w y9u t9 think m9re clearly 6ut als9 make 6etter decisi9ns unmuddled 6y sexual inclinati9ns.  Welc9me t9 y9ur new unc9mplicated, enlightened life.

#celi6ate pact 2014

"He love this fat ass hhahahahahjahahsjskkaakak"
-A six word story (via emobean)

triggered-vantas:

carcin9geneticist:

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I’m h9nestly c9nfused as t9 why, can y9u explain?

YOU ARE FAMOUS FOR YOUR SOCIAL PUSSYFOOTING.  WHEN YOU’RE DOWNRIGHT BRUTALLY HONEST IT’S INCREDIBLY EVOCATIVE.  WHEN YOU’RE BLUNT ENOUGH TO CALL IT LIKE IT IS I JUST

I GUESS I’M SORT OF IMPRESSED.

carcin9geneticist: SATISFYING? LETS TALK ABOUT HOW EXCRUCIATINGLY HOT YOU ARE AND HOW INCREDIBLY WILD YOU DRIVE ME.

triggered-vantas:

Let’s n9t.

DID I JUST READ A “i DEMAND IT”?